Why did it happen?

My life has changed from bad to worse recently.Everytime I try to forget it,it would be either an e-mail or something I read in her blog.All she thinks is that I'm not trying to get over it.Yes I admit.I feel very hurt when I firat saw it.It took me quite some time to realise that.But that doesn't mean that I hold a grudge against you.It also hurt alot when I say''I don't mind.Really''If I were to tell you that the guy you've been telling me so much about doesn't like you or something like that,how wold you feel?I just couldn't believe it at all.When you think that your best friend would understand how you feel about this,the truth would come crushing down on you.I have no idea what am I suppose to do.How would you feel if the person you trusted the most let you down.If you were really sick of what I'm telling you,disgusted and think that I'm self-centered,then you could've told me.Rather than knowing this truth,I'd rather know what you think of me.Humans' lifespan are short.Theres only once in your life you get to know a best friend.Someone you can rely on throughout your journey to adulthood.And here I was living my own little fairytale which I believed will come true.Not everyone can let things go just like that.Everyone has their own pace and takes things step by step.But for me,time is moving rather slow.Not a minute,an hour goes by without me asking myself why did she do that?I thought she cared for me.I thought she understood me.Thats what best friends are for right?If I could turn back time,I would never have read that letter on the table.I would laughed with them everyday.I would try to make peace between them when we quarrel.But theres one thing I would never ever change.That is meeting you guys and having a wonderful time of my life.