The tears won't stop falling.

Even after reading it,I really can't forget what was written in that letter.Everytime I close my eyes,the words would just pop up in my head.Then tears would roll down without me realising.Only after lots of thinking,I've only realised that I've been living in a world of lies.For so many years,I've been living those years with lies but no one has told me what I'm really living through.It really dissappoints me to read that letter.I wished that I never read it.It changed my life forever.When I thought about it,it was the second toughest thing I have ever faced ever since stepping into the gates of our new school.The first is seeing the guy I liked holding hands with another girl.The second was this.Maybe the word 'love' shouldn't be in my dictionary.I'm trying to forget it but I can't.Its one truth that I cannot face.I just don't know who to trust anymore.Should I just blank myself from the real world?I just couldn't accept this fact although I have told myself thousands of times that what they say is true but the feeling of being betrayed is trying to win my mind over.I just don't know what to do.The tears won't stop but I really hope they do.I don't wanna lose my friends just because of something like this.I told myself many times,I've repeated the same things over and over but as I'm writing this,the tears are rolling down my cheeks.I just don't know how to forgive them.I tried but everytime I see them,I have this feeling in me that I was gonna get betrayed again.I don't know who to turn to.I don't know who could lent me their shoulder when I'm confused about things.I don't know who could I ask for advices.The words 'not into'is always in my head.When I read that letter again,I just don't know what to do.When I first read it, I thought someone was playing a trick.But then I realised that that wasn't a joke.I just want the tears to stop.I wanna believe that I can but deep down I know that I cannot.The words would continue to haunt me forever.