Does it make a difference?

Not long after deciding,I reported to Miss Kalpana about the girl and how she's been harassing me.I just feel so disturbed and i could not get enough sleep every night.I feel less threatened by that girl now.My senior is always on the look out for me in case anything should happen to me.But I can't always depend on him.I have to learn to stand on my own two feet.He has taught me well and enough so I can't fail his expectations.Everyone expects me to pass this prefectorial exam since my brother is the assistant head prefect.But I feel that I might let their hopes down.I've tried so hard but the thing is,I could give more but I'm just too scared.I'm scared that maybe.just maybe that the gangsters might get pissed off at me and whack me.I could give more than a 100% but the fear inside of me keeps holding me back.What should I do?I can't stand behind my senior's shadow and ask him to protect me from all harm.I don't know why,but I have a feeling that one of the gangsters that used to threaten me like him.That girl is always asking me to get his number.I've suspected her alot of times but sometimes,what you feel is wrong.You have to see it for yourself.No matter what happens,you have to make the decision for yourself.Your friends,your seniors and your family can't hellp you though this obstacle.It's up to you to make your own choice.Whether its right or wrong,it's up to you to decide.Your friends might think that its wrong,but all you have to do is follow your own heart.Listen to yourself and no one else.It's not wrong but taking your friends advice might cause you some harm.(no offence guys!)But only you and you alone would know whats best for you.I learnt that from personal experience.You can trust other people but in the ned,you have to make the right choice.Like 'The Executioner's Song'it is written ''Life is full of choices.Black and white.Which one is yours?"