Memories

Today is the 212 day I liked him.Somehow,I don't think he noticed me yet.To him,I'm just one of his senior's sister.How much does he mean to me?Even if I did pluck up the courage to tell him how i felt about him,he would just laugh at me.I got bullied in school the other day and i told Cheryl Ng about it.She told me not to worry.She will tell him to change the list.And the next day,he did.Cheryl is a really great senior.She really cares about her juniors.Ever since that incident,he seems to slow down when he walks across the bridge.Could it be he wants to make sure that i am safe?Senior Li Ying told my senior what had happened and how that girl threatened me.I did not have the guts to tell him as we don't communicate that well.After she told him,he immediately came over to me and told me to tell him if that girl came and bully me again.I have a feeling that he feels quite guilty because he wasn't there to protect me when i was in danger.I didn't want to get him involved in this as it might cause him some difficulty.He's already quite busy with his exams and all and now he has to take care of Yu Ming and I.He has to take his PMR next year and I'm quite worried for him as he's taking care of my case.what can i do to lessen his burden?He doesn't pay as much attention to me as my senior.Of course he doesn't.He's not my senior.I received a letter at my file.When i asked Vanessa who was at my place just now,she said no one was here.I opened the letter and it was from a person who obviously doesn't want me to find out who she is.During recess,i found out it was ___,____ and _____ who wrote that letter.I was so disappointed.I trusted them and they wrote that letter.How could i ever trust them ever again?I have a feeling that _____ wrote that letter to me because the guy she had a crush on found out that she liked him and rejected her.But she can always find another guy to love.It's not like he's the only guy on earth.But she thinks that way.Why can't she just learn to let him go?She could at least try,couldn't she?Karen is also another pain.She thinks that everyone is wrong and she's the only one person who's correct.Says the girl who likes Dixon.She's just trying to attract Dixon and if he talks to any of the girl for example Kar-Ryn,she would go up to her later and say, ''you wanna steal my boyfriend away right?''What boyfriend?All Dixon did was talk to her a few times but she has already thought Dixon was her boyfriend.Not only that,she blames other people when it's actually her fault.Like if we lost in a basketball match,she would start cursing and swearing.I don't know when and how she developed that habit.Every word,every sentence for that matter would have at least 1 vulgar word in it.I understand that she is trying to impress Dixon but is impressing a guy that important?More important than your own friends?At least to Karen,that thing is the most important thing of the day and she would feel incomplete without it.Everyone is really getting pissed off at Wai Loon.Not only he's a jerk,he wants to act cool and impress Mei Cheng.He is also a very perverted guy.Nearly all the girls in my class stay away from him.But the girls who don't know how perverted he is,thought that he's a very nice guy and stay friends with him.I wanted to tell all of them but he might do something unpleasant to me.And then there's Craig and Colin,the twins.Craig is like the sleepy one and Colin is the cool one.They're quite nice once you get to know them.I'm writing in this blog now cause i don't know what might happen tomorrow.I might get hit by a car,i might get killed by that girl.Who knows?